Remembering then not. I don’t know what to do. It looks like that my pretensions seems to fool them but from time to time, I don’t remember anything or anyone. Then I would remember it suddenly while walking or eating. I can’t live like this anymore. Yet I should smile to hide my confusion and the pain I am carrying. I cry without anyone seeing it in my eyes coz I made them look into my fake smile, well, I tried to make them.